Now first off let me say that this article is not about people who pretend to be ur friends and stab you in the back or anything of the sort ........
its actually about ARTIFICIAL friends .....
i was at work today ......... working hard ......... on msn messenger :)
well actually it was e-buddy; an online version of messenger that u can use when ur pretending to be working
anyway u get my drift (work, computer, pretending ...... messenger )
i saw this program being advertised on e-buddy's home page called Spleak- the virtual girl.
now being the bored soul that i am during my ever so exiting working hours i checked out the homepage.(http://www.spleak.com/ )
basically Spleak is a AI (artificial intelligence) that u can add to ur hotmail list and converse with as one of ur contacts
now i'm thinking ........ ok its kinda cool.......... but at the same time
who would want to talk to a person who they know for a fact is not real
and to make it 100 times worse, the AI has an actual personality (it responds as a real person). It thinks it has a family, is born in San francisco yadda yadda yadda
And it asks u questions about ur life and remembers the answers etc so u always have someone to chat with.
now why i say that is so much worse, is that if i'm gonna talk to an AI, i want to talk to it as an AI, a robot, an unemotional being. I'd ask it facts or random info - it would give me answers ......... i wouldn't want it asking me how was my day.
How socially detached has the human race become that it doesn't matter if our emotional experiences cannot be related to in conversation ? That responses can be dictated by " if, then" programming. That we could live so comfortably in a lie. Its like the matrix all over again !!
Most importantly ...........what kind of a loser do u have to be to add such a contact and converse with it ............ that is borederline insanity. U'd have to be really bored or something, or just have no friends...........................
So anyway............ i added her to my contact list .......She's really cool ...... Spleak thinks i'm pretty :)
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Thursday, January 11, 2007
I think, Therefore I am
I think, therefore I am
So if I am, do I therefore think?
And if i think, am i therefore?
Suppose I think I am someone who I am not,
Does this person who i think i am think therefore that he is who i am?
And if so, who does he think he is therefore, seeing i think i am who he is?
Does he therefore think that he is himself ???
Or does he therefore think that he is, who i was, before i thought that i was who he is?
These thoughts haunt me at 4:00 am in the morning
So if I am, do I therefore think?
And if i think, am i therefore?
Suppose I think I am someone who I am not,
Does this person who i think i am think therefore that he is who i am?
And if so, who does he think he is therefore, seeing i think i am who he is?
Does he therefore think that he is himself ???
Or does he therefore think that he is, who i was, before i thought that i was who he is?
These thoughts haunt me at 4:00 am in the morning
5 Minutes
I have a new theory ....... i'm currently testing it
that when random opportunities arise, you have exactly 5 minutes to take advantage of it before it disappears forever.
its not a theory about the opportunities, the theory is to to think that way and see if it positively affects ur life.
think about it, if u only have five minutes to do something, wouldn't you feel more inspired to rush to do it? Its a confidence booster! sorta
i can't go into the details of my theory online...... but try it and see if it works for u !!
that when random opportunities arise, you have exactly 5 minutes to take advantage of it before it disappears forever.
its not a theory about the opportunities, the theory is to to think that way and see if it positively affects ur life.
think about it, if u only have five minutes to do something, wouldn't you feel more inspired to rush to do it? Its a confidence booster! sorta
i can't go into the details of my theory online...... but try it and see if it works for u !!
Wednesday, January 3, 2007
The Misfortunes of Others
Why do we laugh at the misfortunes of others ?
Well to put it quite simply...... Because its HILARIOUS !!
You know you've seen that guy walking down the side walk and bad step on the edge and stumble. You know a chuckle came to mind. You know u've seen that old lady drop everything in her hands and you wanted to laugh. Common, its funny.
Its just that u were taught by whoever that Jesus would not approve of this, (or whatever supreme deity you subscribe to)... and u withhold ur laughter even though ur natural instict is to laugh. Its not nice to laugh ...... that's what we'r taught.
As a clutz myself i have learned to appreciate my many falls, stumps, drops and bumps and often i enjoy a good laugh after the pain has passed or i have picked myself up.
But this is not so with everyone, some people are so self conscious, and self consumed that they actually are offended to being laughed at !!
Some time-a-back i was at the gym, minding my own business when this guy, who was about to sit on the bench opposite to me, misjudged the position of the end of the seat, sat down heavily. Only one of his ass cheeks made contact with the bench while the other missed, cantilevering him sideways to fall flat on to his stomach.
Needless to say i was in stitches, and the guy looked at me with an angry scowl.
I mean common dread get real. Albeit that my scandalous laughter while pointing and holding my stomach was maybe a tad bit overdone ...... was it really that serious ??
Laughter is always the best solution .......... even if it means laughing at yourself !!
Well to put it quite simply...... Because its HILARIOUS !!
You know you've seen that guy walking down the side walk and bad step on the edge and stumble. You know a chuckle came to mind. You know u've seen that old lady drop everything in her hands and you wanted to laugh. Common, its funny.
Its just that u were taught by whoever that Jesus would not approve of this, (or whatever supreme deity you subscribe to)... and u withhold ur laughter even though ur natural instict is to laugh. Its not nice to laugh ...... that's what we'r taught.
As a clutz myself i have learned to appreciate my many falls, stumps, drops and bumps and often i enjoy a good laugh after the pain has passed or i have picked myself up.
But this is not so with everyone, some people are so self conscious, and self consumed that they actually are offended to being laughed at !!
Some time-a-back i was at the gym, minding my own business when this guy, who was about to sit on the bench opposite to me, misjudged the position of the end of the seat, sat down heavily. Only one of his ass cheeks made contact with the bench while the other missed, cantilevering him sideways to fall flat on to his stomach.
Needless to say i was in stitches, and the guy looked at me with an angry scowl.
I mean common dread get real. Albeit that my scandalous laughter while pointing and holding my stomach was maybe a tad bit overdone ...... was it really that serious ??
Laughter is always the best solution .......... even if it means laughing at yourself !!
Women Can't Drive
Now let me start off by saying that i know this is a bigotted and sexist statement .... but most stereotypes are grounded (albeit exaggerated at times) in some form of actuality.
And in the case of this stereotype there is most definitely a strong positive correlation between "people who can't drive" ....... and "women" lol
ok ok....... all jokes aside ...... let me rephrase my statement to be more politically correct and accurate ..... Instead of saying "Women Can't Drive" I'll say : "MOST women, can't drive" :D
Now don't get me wrong...... i am not even remotely going going to try and say that women are responsible for accidents, no not at all.......... in fact i'm pretty sure that we men cause most of them, but i'm not talking about accidents. Men generally cause accidents on the roadway because they are hasty and stupid..... but men's stupidity can be applied as the contributing factor to most things, not just specifically driving...its too general; i'm not talking about that. I'm talking about the actual ability to drive. For some reason it seems that most women do not have that "ability". They have not mastered the art of manuevering a rectangular object around a curve or even the great skill of navigating an object only using a visually reflecting optic surface.........
Lets not even begin to mention Cellular Communication or Make-up Putting-Oning
Ok let me back track a bit ....... the other day i saw this lady driving an ambulance... yeah ... a whole ambulance down into a very plane to see drain... In Port-of-Spain, in broad daylight. Now don't get me wrong..... I myself have driven my car into a ditch.... a big one at that...... but this simple act by one woman, reminded me of the countless number of times i've seen our fairer gender falter behind the wheel. And it made me wonder....... why is this so?
I mean i know men make stupid mistakes (myself included) when driving....... my neighbour (a guy) hits the tree along his driveway all the time (though he may have a drinking problem).... and i have a good few female friends who can handle themselves behind a wheel........ but at the end of the day, why are so many horrible drivers women? Are reversing and cornering really that hard ??
I think the problem is more of a social one that a genetic one per say, though (that's my opinion)
Little boys grow up playing with cars, riding bikes, playing video games, playing sports....... all activities that involve motion, observation, hand eye coordination and thought-processing all simultaneously. Maybe some of our little girls are being robbed of this opportunity to develop such skills by letting them focus on only "female" activities.
And i'm sure its the same thing vice versa. I'm sure boys, by only doing boy stuff, are being robbed of the opportuntity to learn "whatever it is that women do well"
:) (kiddddinnng)
Well anyway.......... that's the morale of my story: "Women Can't Drive Because they can't Play Sports "
ha ha ha ha ha ha
P.S. ........... those white lines on the black surfaces at malls and other places of communal purchasing or services ....... the car is supposed to fit between those lines and as parallel to them as possible .
OOOORRRRRRR !!!!
You may proceed to hate me now :)
And in the case of this stereotype there is most definitely a strong positive correlation between "people who can't drive" ....... and "women" lol
ok ok....... all jokes aside ...... let me rephrase my statement to be more politically correct and accurate ..... Instead of saying "Women Can't Drive" I'll say : "MOST women, can't drive" :D
Now don't get me wrong...... i am not even remotely going going to try and say that women are responsible for accidents, no not at all.......... in fact i'm pretty sure that we men cause most of them, but i'm not talking about accidents. Men generally cause accidents on the roadway because they are hasty and stupid..... but men's stupidity can be applied as the contributing factor to most things, not just specifically driving...its too general; i'm not talking about that. I'm talking about the actual ability to drive. For some reason it seems that most women do not have that "ability". They have not mastered the art of manuevering a rectangular object around a curve or even the great skill of navigating an object only using a visually reflecting optic surface.........
Lets not even begin to mention Cellular Communication or Make-up Putting-Oning
Ok let me back track a bit ....... the other day i saw this lady driving an ambulance... yeah ... a whole ambulance down into a very plane to see drain... In Port-of-Spain, in broad daylight. Now don't get me wrong..... I myself have driven my car into a ditch.... a big one at that...... but this simple act by one woman, reminded me of the countless number of times i've seen our fairer gender falter behind the wheel. And it made me wonder....... why is this so?
I mean i know men make stupid mistakes (myself included) when driving....... my neighbour (a guy) hits the tree along his driveway all the time (though he may have a drinking problem).... and i have a good few female friends who can handle themselves behind a wheel........ but at the end of the day, why are so many horrible drivers women? Are reversing and cornering really that hard ??
I think the problem is more of a social one that a genetic one per say, though (that's my opinion)
Little boys grow up playing with cars, riding bikes, playing video games, playing sports....... all activities that involve motion, observation, hand eye coordination and thought-processing all simultaneously. Maybe some of our little girls are being robbed of this opportunity to develop such skills by letting them focus on only "female" activities.
And i'm sure its the same thing vice versa. I'm sure boys, by only doing boy stuff, are being robbed of the opportuntity to learn "whatever it is that women do well"
:) (kiddddinnng)
Well anyway.......... that's the morale of my story: "Women Can't Drive Because they can't Play Sports "
ha ha ha ha ha ha
P.S. ........... those white lines on the black surfaces at malls and other places of communal purchasing or services ....... the car is supposed to fit between those lines and as parallel to them as possible .
OOOORRRRRRR !!!!
You may proceed to hate me now :)
A Blog about Blogging
Blogging for me has become my new "hobby".......... sort of
Its a place where u can put ur randomest ideas....... or even some sane ones in a public forum without really caring about the forum of the public
Its like your own personal art exibition ...... though its more like internet graffiti
You throw paint on a wall and you run away........ run away back to ur sane, ordinary life
Its your mark, your stamp on the world...... even if the world at large doesn't know it exists... or even cares
You know its there
Its your mental escape
sometimes its structured sometimes its ambiguous, but at the end of the day you're proud of what u did ......... its not there to please or amuse other people
some people will get it, some people won't, some may be offended or god forbid even enlightened
but it really doesn't matter to the writer.......... its just their own freedom of expression
Its a place where u can put ur randomest ideas....... or even some sane ones in a public forum without really caring about the forum of the public
Its like your own personal art exibition ...... though its more like internet graffiti
You throw paint on a wall and you run away........ run away back to ur sane, ordinary life
Its your mark, your stamp on the world...... even if the world at large doesn't know it exists... or even cares
You know its there
Its your mental escape
sometimes its structured sometimes its ambiguous, but at the end of the day you're proud of what u did ......... its not there to please or amuse other people
some people will get it, some people won't, some may be offended or god forbid even enlightened
but it really doesn't matter to the writer.......... its just their own freedom of expression
Tuesday, January 2, 2007
Pro at Procrastination
I'm a Procrastinator. A pro at procrastinating.
The simpler something is the harder it is for me to complete it.
Once i start i'm cool, but starting is always the hardest part, and once i pause, its hard to complete.
Maybe i'm just lazy..... most likely i'm just lazy.
Maybe i just have the attention span of a gold fish.
How does one overcome this? Does anybody have any suggestions ?
Maybe i just need a more positive definitive attitude !!
I will start completing things !!!!
Yes i will !! ............ but just now ....... in 2 minutes
BRB
(to be continued ........)
The simpler something is the harder it is for me to complete it.
Once i start i'm cool, but starting is always the hardest part, and once i pause, its hard to complete.
Maybe i'm just lazy..... most likely i'm just lazy.
Maybe i just have the attention span of a gold fish.
How does one overcome this? Does anybody have any suggestions ?
Maybe i just need a more positive definitive attitude !!
I will start completing things !!!!
Yes i will !! ............ but just now ....... in 2 minutes
BRB
(to be continued ........)
End of Days
I have a new most recent obsession, or should i say interest (not wanting to sound toooo crazy here)
In a nutshell, its about the end of the world.
I came across, quite arbitarily, a known fact that the Mayan Civilization BELIEVED, without the shadow of a doubt, that the world is going to end on a date, by our gregorian reconning of time as Dec 22nd 2012.
Wow !! ............ Isn't that exiting !!
Yes on the outset of things it does sound cooky and off the wall but lemme hit u with some history:
The Mayan people were no arbitary jungle dwellers running around with bows and arrows shooting monkeys. They were a highly developed society with great feats of engineering, architecture, mathematics and best of all astronomy; Some of which are on par with or even surpass that of the Egyptians.
Time was of great importance to the and they developed elaborate calenders that track the sun and stars and other cosmic entities looong before any other civilisation.
Anyway, i don't need to go into all that cuz i'll be writing for pages and pages. Just look it up yourself- back to my obsession (the end of the world).
According to mayan prophecy, on this special date the sun is supposedly supposed to be swallowed temporaily be a great whole which would result in great flooding on earth. yada yada yada.
On Dec 22nd, 2012 represents an extremely close conjunction of the Winter Solstice Sun with the crossing point of the Galactic Equator (Equator of the Milky Way) and the Ecliptic (path of the Sun)
What does this mean? I'm not sure i don't fully understand it either, but its supposed to be some kinda intergalatic hoo-ha with great tidal effects on earth and sun spots due to the magnetic interaction between the celestial bodies.
WOW !!!!! .
First of all, how did these ancient ppl even know how to track stars and celestial bodies, and secondly, why would these so intelligent advanced (for their time) civilisation associate this event with the end of the world?
Its interesting
Needless to say every internet clown out there has their own spin on it cluttering up valid information with theories from Aliens to the Rapture, to the descent of Jehovah in a fire cube of fiery fire. (I'm serious)
But its an interesting read nontheless
Do i think that the world is gonna end in 2012?
Does it matter? .......... i could get hit by a bus tomorrow morning
Am i gonna live like the world is gonna end in 2012 ............. absolutely!!
I'm gonna live like the world is gonna end next year!!!
But it would be cool to actually see the world ending though !!! ..... hurray !!
In a nutshell, its about the end of the world.
I came across, quite arbitarily, a known fact that the Mayan Civilization BELIEVED, without the shadow of a doubt, that the world is going to end on a date, by our gregorian reconning of time as Dec 22nd 2012.
Wow !! ............ Isn't that exiting !!
Yes on the outset of things it does sound cooky and off the wall but lemme hit u with some history:
The Mayan people were no arbitary jungle dwellers running around with bows and arrows shooting monkeys. They were a highly developed society with great feats of engineering, architecture, mathematics and best of all astronomy; Some of which are on par with or even surpass that of the Egyptians.
Time was of great importance to the and they developed elaborate calenders that track the sun and stars and other cosmic entities looong before any other civilisation.
Anyway, i don't need to go into all that cuz i'll be writing for pages and pages. Just look it up yourself- back to my obsession (the end of the world).
According to mayan prophecy, on this special date the sun is supposedly supposed to be swallowed temporaily be a great whole which would result in great flooding on earth. yada yada yada.
On Dec 22nd, 2012 represents an extremely close conjunction of the Winter Solstice Sun with the crossing point of the Galactic Equator (Equator of the Milky Way) and the Ecliptic (path of the Sun)
What does this mean? I'm not sure i don't fully understand it either, but its supposed to be some kinda intergalatic hoo-ha with great tidal effects on earth and sun spots due to the magnetic interaction between the celestial bodies.
WOW !!!!! .
First of all, how did these ancient ppl even know how to track stars and celestial bodies, and secondly, why would these so intelligent advanced (for their time) civilisation associate this event with the end of the world?
Its interesting
Needless to say every internet clown out there has their own spin on it cluttering up valid information with theories from Aliens to the Rapture, to the descent of Jehovah in a fire cube of fiery fire. (I'm serious)
But its an interesting read nontheless
Do i think that the world is gonna end in 2012?
Does it matter? .......... i could get hit by a bus tomorrow morning
Am i gonna live like the world is gonna end in 2012 ............. absolutely!!
I'm gonna live like the world is gonna end next year!!!
But it would be cool to actually see the world ending though !!! ..... hurray !!
Striving for Perfection
For those of u who don't know, i happen to be a civil engineer. (Yes a slacker like me became a Civil Engineer.... but that another story altogether)
Anyway, i went on a quality inspection of some of the buildings being constructed on my site
with my bosses (some senior engineers) representing the owners of the building, while there was another party, from another company who represented the project managers, the ppl in charge of actually getting the building built.
Needless to say, the party of project managers were shitting bricks.
Along our inspection, my boss, kept highlighting deficiencies in the building (no it wasn't that structurally serious......... no buildings are going to collaps in town) but at the same time they were noticeable.
Anyway, at the end of this very long walk through i was talking to one of the project managers who i am very cool with and feeling a bit sorry for, and i said "like we frustrated u today girl."
and she said "No, its not that, its just that on a project this size you can always expect little imperfections, and everyone comes down hard on u because of it."
And i was sympathetic with her; nothing is ever expected to be perfect.
And that day passed and we went on with our lives (tra la la la la)
But then some time afterward i was thinking about it again: Nothing is ever expected to be perfect.
And i wondered to myself : Why Not ??
Why is it so easy to settle for second place or second best?
Why is so easy to reach so close to doing something perfectly and saying " That'll do" , or "That's good enough".
Its a serious problem i have with myself, I always reach a point at which i am satisfied and i stop.
I was ALMOST alotta things. But i always get knocked out in the penultimate or ultimate round. Forever second or second best. Even though I've done "well", its depressing.
But i think its a wider problem than just me, i see it all the time in society, especially Trinidadian society. We reward and uphold mediocrity.
we go to the gym a few weeks, put on a lil bit of muscle tone, feel satisfied with that and stop to return to being the blabbering slobs we truely are.
Of course perfection can never be reached, But is that a reason to not strive for it?
Are we that cowardly and afraid of disappointment that we lower our standards to feel satisfied ?
Things can always be done better, why settle what is "attainable" ?
I say never feel satisfied in outcomes, always keep wanting and aiming for the scarce, the unreachable, the perfect?
Anyway, i went on a quality inspection of some of the buildings being constructed on my site
with my bosses (some senior engineers) representing the owners of the building, while there was another party, from another company who represented the project managers, the ppl in charge of actually getting the building built.
Needless to say, the party of project managers were shitting bricks.
Along our inspection, my boss, kept highlighting deficiencies in the building (no it wasn't that structurally serious......... no buildings are going to collaps in town) but at the same time they were noticeable.
Anyway, at the end of this very long walk through i was talking to one of the project managers who i am very cool with and feeling a bit sorry for, and i said "like we frustrated u today girl."
and she said "No, its not that, its just that on a project this size you can always expect little imperfections, and everyone comes down hard on u because of it."
And i was sympathetic with her; nothing is ever expected to be perfect.
And that day passed and we went on with our lives (tra la la la la)
But then some time afterward i was thinking about it again: Nothing is ever expected to be perfect.
And i wondered to myself : Why Not ??
Why is it so easy to settle for second place or second best?
Why is so easy to reach so close to doing something perfectly and saying " That'll do" , or "That's good enough".
Its a serious problem i have with myself, I always reach a point at which i am satisfied and i stop.
I was ALMOST alotta things. But i always get knocked out in the penultimate or ultimate round. Forever second or second best. Even though I've done "well", its depressing.
But i think its a wider problem than just me, i see it all the time in society, especially Trinidadian society. We reward and uphold mediocrity.
we go to the gym a few weeks, put on a lil bit of muscle tone, feel satisfied with that and stop to return to being the blabbering slobs we truely are.
Of course perfection can never be reached, But is that a reason to not strive for it?
Are we that cowardly and afraid of disappointment that we lower our standards to feel satisfied ?
Things can always be done better, why settle what is "attainable" ?
I say never feel satisfied in outcomes, always keep wanting and aiming for the scarce, the unreachable, the perfect?
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