Once Upon a Time ...

Wow ... its been so long since I've been here ...on my blog ... almost six months ...

and i still have nothing to say ....

and still yet so much has happened during that time ....

I remember the days of sitting in my overly-large overly white walled construction site office with nothing to do BUT write on my blog. And now i barely have time for it. At first the excitement of writing "anonymously" on my blog was quite appealing. I just said what i wanted and didn't really care if it was crap, or if my grammar was bad, or if it was poorly written. It was truly just the Ramblings of a Madman. But as time went on, and my friends caught on, (and my not-so-friends caught on), i realised "Hey people actually read my shit". I would get critics and comments and messages about my latest blog entry. And somehow, though it was not my original intention, the pressure was on to impress. I was a rockstar.

And like a rockstar, your only as good as ur last solo. Gone were the days of random blog entries, effort had to be made to maintain a certain standard of entertainment, but with the same random style and feel. My blogs now tried to convey a message, they had to have purpose, to be subtle enough to be overlooked, but yet deep enough to those who looked deep enough. That took effort. Sure i slipped in the totally random blog between the really good ones. But the good ones took time. And time is something i have very little of with my budding "career" and return back to school.

I now look back at my over 25 incomplete blogs that were never posted ( i stopped counting at 25), and i wonder if I'll ever finish them. Or if I'll even remember what ways my train of thought at the time. But i like writting. And i want to start back. Even if it just a post about y i haven't been writting. A journey of a thousand blogs starts with 25 drafts .... or something so.

I dunno if I'll ever complete those drafts ... so don't hold ur breathe. But i will try to start back. Even if i can't find anything quirky or funny to say.

So here goes nothing !
(That quote sounds so good in cartoons ..... but yet is so gay to read geeze)