An Ode to My EX

I see her there. Just lazily draped over the edge of my bed, a mere crease denoting a smile ....... So unassuming, yet so mockingly.

"You cast me aside to try on many others, you put me below your pile ....and yet ..... i've waited on you," i could almost hear her say ...."And look at what you have become without me - So Lazy, and Idle and Fat ....... you don't even deserve to own me the way you do".

I could feel the shame running through me ........ i had neglected her...... i had cast her aside ..... i hadn't made the time to be with her. Something had always come between us, my job, the limes I had to go to, my own personal projects and even ... other "loves".

We were always closest after Christmas and more so coming up to Carnival, but even that time too i had neglected to be with her.

And now i regretted it ......... I was always in my best form when i was with her ..... She sculpted me into the man i was ...She gave me STRENGTH ....and i had the STAMINA to stick to my resolve.... men envied me and the ladies cast me their more-than-just-noticing glances ......

But not now without her...

I have no drive ... I am a thick shadow of the man i was ... I have begun to get soft
And though i cast her aside for other "more important" things ........... i still have fond memories of the times we shared together
watching the sun rise together, or our moonlit walks .......... the way she kept me WARM .... or the way i could just tug at her and she'd tighten around me

Anytime i ran away, she would RUN with me ......

And there now she sits .................. mocking what i have become ....... but yet still so invitingly ...
Practically begging me to slide into her ......... and let her wrap her legs around mine.

I want so badly to feel her inner-lining again ....... but i don't know if i can commit to the relationship that we once shared ... I have no time

But i will try for you......

MY EX ................. MY EXERCISE ........... MY EXERCISE TRACKPANTS

But .... not now, i'm in a hurry ........ maybe this afternoon .......... or even tommorrow ........ or even tentatively tuesday