Living in the Shadow of My Imagination

You ever had big dreams ? ........... No not wet dreams ........ big dreams!

Dreams of that one thing or one situation that would be "Really Awesome !! " ......

What is stopping you ? ......... Fear of failure? Fear of the unknown? Fear of losing the things u already have for the things that you desire? ......... Fear of that 1st step ?

I have big dreams - usually at work ...... They usually end with a loud gasp and a long back hand stroke across my face to wipe away the accumulated saliva.

But seriously ......... i have big dreams .......... mainly of world domination ........ but the intermediary steps are cool as well ........... like owning a donut shop ........ donuts are delicious

but i digress ....
Sometimes i wonder if my imagination is larger than what is accomplishable.....
But how would i know what is accomplishable unless i try ??

The other problem is the risk .......... do i sacrifice what i have now ........ for what i possibly could have ?? Are pipe dreams worth chasing ?
There comes a time in every mans life when he asks himself:
"Do i want to run with the bulls? Or do i want to graze in a pasture?"
"Do i want the thrill of the stampede with downside of constantly foraging for food? or do i want a mundane but stable footing where i have ample lettuce?"

Is the tehered bull reall happy ............ or is the hungry bull ?

Is the grass really always greener on the other side? or is it just my imagination?
I don't know right now ....

My imagination may open "possibilities" up to me ........ but i still fear that first step ..... the decision to chase, or not to chase. I am overwhelmed by a shadow of doubt.

But i am reminded of a line i learned from Survivorman ......... that crazy show on the Discovery Channel where they drop white ppl in the forest for seven days and they have to eat ants and bats, and other crap until they find their way out. (Yeah ...... only white ppl do that kind of shit...)

It goes something like this: "Always make a decision and follow thru with it ......... most ppl that die in the wilderness die because they stay in one place and think about what to do next while in fact doing nothing....... by making a decision, even a wrong one, it puts u in a position where u can do something else to aid in ur survival...... and u keep making decisions until ur either safe or in a position to make a better decicion.... but hey, it beats starving or being eaten by wild iguanas" (ok ok ......... i put that last part in myself )

but u get my point ............. make a decision !!

so at the end of all this i have come to a decision

and my decision is ......... to make a decision ...

hey ............ at least i'm not being eaten by wild iguanas

P.S. The Zzmadman loves the Discovery Channel ........ I hate you Flow .......... You Bastard !




(These iguanas have British accents ......... Man eating iguanas are always funnier with british accents ....... think about it lol)